Goodbye October.

October this year has been bittersweet for me. Though I was going to HK for a holiday but the two days before that was horrible. I had to make a choice between two options which were both neither right nor wrong, and both of which would make me feel really bad in the end. Ahh.. up till now, I really hope that I won't regret the choice I've made and that nothing else would happen from there.

But on a happier note, HK was really good, sort of like a well-deserved break from working like a dog. It's kind of sad that I couldn't get to shop much because it was going to be winter soon so everything's pretty much thick and long sleeved which is like a big no-no for Singapore's weather. Highlight of the trip was when baby surprised me with a pretty bouquet and a bottle of Moscato (which I only had 3 sips) on the second night as a belated birthday gift. Heh

I'm pretty much slacking at this point of time and erm... currently, what's on my mind is the black Iphone 5s. Ha ha ha, let's hope I get what I want this time.

Ps

You're my favourite.

But you won't know a thing.

Realizing.

I'm just starting to realize those who are true, and those who you can just.. yknow, forget? But yeah, it works both ways, so I'm guessing if I'm feeling this way from them then they might be feeling this way from me. But I'm so tired of keeping in touch with people who won't even remember you to start with and those who I've bothered to stay in touch with.. it just hurts to see that they won't even do the same to you. So yeah, that's it. But I'm not upset or anything, I'm just relieved to finally be feeling this way. Trust me to even feel guilty for such people.

Anyways, been really happy lately and I can always tell that by the amount of food I'm eating. Always bloated! Life's always good when food's good and when you have such an awesome companion beside you. Feeling really contented.

And I'm looking forward to my 21st though I'm not having a party or whatever fanciful way of celebrating (c'mon it's just another birthday), but it's the company that matters. Family and you. That's all I need. And a nice holiday with good food and hopefully good shopping! Ahhh, I can't wait.

Ps, doing this transcript, listening to this Eurasian guy talk about how far Singapore have come since the Japanese occupation really makes me proud to be a Singaporean. So blessed to have such great forefathers and leaders who have fought well to make Singapore the place it is now. To trust people nowadays are complaining about how trains are slow and blah blah blah, imagine last time when they had to take long walks to get to their destinations? It's kinda sad to see how privileged people are noawadays and then, them taking it ALL for granted. But oh well, life isn't always fair.

Must.

My train of thoughts have been really messy lately, can't seem to focus at all. It's so bad that I have to keep writing lists to remind myself and reorganize everything. The fact that my phone dies like within 2 hours is not helping either.

And you baby, I'm glad that I've found you.

I heard what you said. I’m not the silly romantic you think. I don’t want the heavens or the shooting stars. I don’t want gemstones or gold. I have those things already. I want.. a steady hand. A kind soul. I want to fall asleep, and wake, knowing my heart is safe. I want to love, and be loved.

Realize.

Don't be a bitch.

Want.

I just want to laze at the beach in my bikini, with good music, a nice book to read, alongside with some fattening snacks.

Oh and yeah, pints and pints of apple sourz with sprite.

That'll be a good vacation.

/ I hate you so much that all I want to do is curse you but I know if I see you around, all I want to do is be close to you. Stupidity at its highest.

Expectations.

They are just dangerous, both to have and to give.

/ I'm no one special, just another wide-eyed girl, who's desperately in love with you.