Accept

I must accept the fact that nobody is like me, and that love works in many ways. Just because someone doesn't agree with you or go along with you doesn't mean they don't love you. It just means they're being a bitch or they just can't give in. I must accept it. I must accept it. It is really for my own good.

I came to sp, with the thoughts of you haunting me so badly that I break down every night, trying to find a reason for myself to be feeling like this, trying to let you go because it really has been too long. And now, it's just a couple of months to graduation and fuck, please don't fucking let me graduate with those thoughts haunting me. This would just means I'm back to square 1 and I think it's clear to everyone that square fucking 1 just sucks.

Yes I can.

I can finish my inds I can finish my inds I can finish my inds I can finish my inds I can finish my inds I can finish my inds I can finish my inds I can finish my inds I can finish my inds I can finish my inds I can finish my inds I can finish my inds I can finish my inds I can finish my inds I can finish my inds I can finish my inds I can finish my inds I can finish my inds I can finish my inds I can finish my inds I can finish my inds I can finish my inds I can finish my inds I can finish my inds I can finish my inds I can finish my inds I can finish my inds I can finish my inds I can finish my inds I can finish my inds

#whoamikidding

Been 2 years since I've let you go.

I've had two choices today. To get mad/heartbroken and question you the moment you wake up, or to stay nonchalant and just ask you out. I'm so glad I made the right one cause I'm so happy now. :3

Bali

Maybe I'll sit by the beach and catch a tan. Or read a book and enjoy the sea breeze. Maybe I'll meet up with a friend and hang out at the mall. Or have a drink or two or maybe three in the bar. Maybe I'll walk around town and take pictures of everything I see. Or just sit in my room and take a nap.

I just want to find myself again.

Fingers crossed.

Ah, tonight. I can think of 5 reasons why I should have my own room.

1. I want to sing along to my songs without letting anyone hear me
2. I would totally change my room layout to something that's easier for me to do my work
3. I want my privacy
4. So I can have sleepovers ^^
5. I'm old enough to?

I love you puggy, do not fail me now.

Stagnant.

If there's a word that describes me, it'll be stagnant. I'm not hurt like how I would be last time but I ain't happy either. I've been talking to a lot of different people lately, just getting to know what they think and I've been opened up to many different opinions. Yet the only one that matters is mine, and the only one I need to know is yours.

Guess I'm just waiting for the last straw.

/ What am I doing really?

/

From today onwards, I'm going to focus on what makes me happy and fuck everything that doesn't. Isn't this what life's about? I might love you, so I've got all the patience in the world for ya, but I ain't saint I can't be here forever for someone who's not afraid for me to leave.

Might be holding your hand but I'm holding it loose.