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We think with our wants, instead of our needs, thus forcing us to be so fickle with our choices. How privileged are we to be able to consider what we want before what we need.

Both a blessing and a curse.

Break

Isn't it about time I get my holiday?

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Solitary is what I crave for most days, times where I can tune out and not listen or try to please anyone, to just relax and do what I want.

I crave.

Belong

I want your Monday morning

sleep soaked eyes

dream drenched voice,

lazy bones

‘five more minutes please babe.’

I want your Tuesday afternoon

coffee break,

glasses off,
laughter on

‘just hold me for a while

it’s been a hard day.’

I want your Wednesday evening

fingers through hair

teeth nibbling nails

neck craning, 
eye glazing

‘this paperwork never ends’

I want your Thursday night

drinks for two

bones unbind

muscles let loose

flats, slacks,

‘just me and you’

I want your finally Friday

stretch soul smile,

sun sipping light

from the glaciers in your eyes

fingers unfurl, 
hand extends

‘c’mon babe, lets go wild’

I want your weekend,
your movie marathon Saturday

reading by the fireplace

kissing in the blankets


I want your Sunday morning

orange juice and pancakes

white sheets, tender skin

hair like the Fourth of July

‘let’s not get out of bed today.’

I want your ordinary

and your stress, rest, release

I want your bad day and that terrible night

I want you drunk in my arms

forgetting the place but never my name

I want your lazy and your lonely

and your fist full of fight

I want you everyday

in every way

for the rest of my life.

- On Both Knees

New year, new start.

Time to know whether I'll make or break it.

Ok, I'm kidding. I'm going to make it, I fucking swear. 

2014

Here's my cheesy post to sum up 2014.


2014 was almost like 2013, except it was maybe 1.5 times better.

I think my favorite part of it was that I got to travel a lot, to places that's so beautiful that it's unreal. The worst part was that I've lost some "friends", though I'm not sure they're even friends to begin with but I'm just glad they're out of my life now. I'm thankful for those who've stayed, my constants, the quality ones.

I'm really excited and looking forward to 2015, because of my new job which I hope that I can make a career out of it. And no boys, just focus on my career though I know it's still too early to say that. So for 2015, I think all I want out of it is more firsts, more awesome trips, a healthier lifestyle and of course, more money.

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Honestly, there's nothing you can say that I haven't already insulted myself with. But yeah, go ahead and try. Let's see what new shit you can come up with.