Have strength.
I've been on a korean drama binge for god knows what reason.
Maybe to escape from reality.
Drove pass your place twice yesterday, didn't feel anything except a ton of memories of how I let myself be treated inhumanely by you and being shamed and embarrassed every time I saw you.
Today's your birthday. I didn't realize it until I got a sudden curiosity to check it on Facebook. Funny how this time last year, I was hesitant to wish you with mixed feelings. But still, I'm glad.
Thought about you a few days back, of our happy memories, and then scolded myself for it. Even if you were bad to me, I'm happy you're good to her. For her, maybe.
This... strong feeling to ignore everyone and just do my own thing, be it just rotting at home and doing nothing. The best kind of therapy but I'm slowly losing myself, to me. I can't help but slowly detest everyone I know, because every time I ease up, there's bound to be something happening.
Sometimes, I feel it's best.. if I disappear. Without pain, without regrets. Just be gone.
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