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Tell me you love me, come back and haunt me.

Just let me be dumb and pathetic for tonight. It's stupid how a picture brings back so much.

Long time no update.

I... logged in to blogger thinking of all the things I can update, talking to nobody in particular, just writing down what's been bothering me, my recent thoughts and whatsoever. Then I thought about how I recently made a pact with myself to keep my problems to myself, not to trouble anyone with it, and that if I didn't talk about it, it doesn't exist. For a few days, it worked. But now, I wished I had somebody I can talk to about this but at the same time, I don't think there's anybody and that's sad but I just realised, it's really okay to me. Because I just want to forget it. So now I'm typing and talking about how the problem's affecting me but not the problem. It doesn't seem to help but oh well. It was worth a shot.

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Yknow the quote, 'when the going gets tough, the tough gets going' right? Well where do I go from here?

You

2 cny ago, I sort of spent it with you, with your family. Last cny, I was sad trying to get over you. This cny, I'm busy thinking of you, while trying to forget him, while thoughts of you and her occupy my mind wondering what you guys are doing. I miss you. I miss your family. I miss being a part of something other than myself.

I hate myself.

Update.

Been helping Farrah's friend to take care of Hazel (chihuahua) since Wednesday and it's been quite an experience. She's so cute and tamed but I'm always on the edge because I always have to worry about her shitting around (she's trained to shit on grass); her barking at neighbors who walk pass etc. But anyways, guess what? Today when I brought her down for a walk, the 9th storey cutie came in the lift and looked at her and laughed and then he talked to me! Been waiting for like almost 5 years for him to talk to me, and finally! Heh heh although it's nothing, he just asked if she's a new dog and etc but oh well, I felt quite nervous and happy afterwards. ^^

And like right now I feel quite empty. Yeah, I have no idea why am I like this now too.

Please.

Save me.

/ I think, think, this is your way of saving me right?

Happy day.

Left the house and saw my 9th storey cutie. Weather was perfect for a dip in the pool and a tan. Today was a good day for me but I wonder why I just can't stay happy. Well actually, I know the reason's you but oh well.