Confession of an ugly girl

It's funny how I can actually cry when I think about how ugly I am. I guess it's just one of those days when I don't feel so special, when I realize that I don't really matter and how ugly I look. I hate the way looks always play a part and no matter how nice you are.. if you're fucking ugly, you're fucking ugly. I feel so unappreciated. I feel so useless. I feel so stupid. Fuck this.

Feelings

I feel like I'm still waiting, for nothing. I feel like maybe someday you'll turn back but I know it's stupid and pathetic and lame. I feel so sad because of everything. I don't feel like myself anymore. Sigh..

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Why are you crying you useless piece of shit

Go short or go home

Since I've never been the kind to tie their hair up, so I've decided to just cut my own shoulder length hair even shorter after seeing Arizona Muse's hair (she's so pretty damn it). And look, DIY manicure. :)

Baby it's all wrong

Sorry for not updating regularly because honestly, I'm just kinda sick of facing the screen after a whole day of facing the damn screen (I hate you indesign and photoshop) and that's kinda the reason why I want to quit. Spending my time facing the screen when I can be doing much productive and useful stuff. Most often, I would just feel like I'm wasting my life.

My close friend's father had recently passed away and I really couldn't believe it because I remember just seeing him two weeks ago, he was funny and caring and really nice towards to me. I hate it when people leave, hate it so much that sometimes I wouldn't go to their funeral because this way, I can tell myself they didn't really leave. I also hate the fact that it happened to my friend. And the thing I hate most is me getting irritated by my mum when I found out she used my nail polish. I am so ridiculous. Thank God I didn't lose my cool and shout at her or whatever, otherwise I think I'll feel so goddamn guilty.

Okay, that's all for now.