Truth.

1) Constantly being let down
2) Constantly being taken advantage of

Try being me. Just.. try.

Figure it out.

Work is good. I feel as if I'm paid to club and drink? but in an exhausting kinda way and everybody's just really fun.

Hmm what else.. Well I think dad is pretty persistent on me continuing my studies but yeah, we'll see. And what else.. meh, life's pretty much nothing much right now.

Sometimes.

All is going well but I am just very jealous, like 24/7 a day minus when I'm sleeping. I'm just.. very very jealous. I know, I should learn to count my blessings. Trust me, I do that, it's just that.. well.. yeah.

/ I don't know what's wrong with me, I don't know how to sort out my feelings.

From the inside.

I've been really happy these days with small moments of sadness mixed with nostalgia but it's really, all good emotions. Been doing things I like, eating things I love, meeting up with people I enjoy and just, finding myself. I've no longer feel the need to induce pain onto my heart and finding out things that are irrelevant to my life. Although once in a while, I might get tempted but yeah, I realize I gotta treat myself better.

Today, in the moment of spontaneity, I chopped off like 2 inches of my hair and then I felt quite liberal. Even though I didn't have enough balls to chop off my fringe, but oh well. Guess that was fun while it lasted.

I pray for those two jobs, hopefully, I'll get both and earn myself some money and experience.

Finally.

A year ago, everything started.

I will always love you. I don't even want to change that. But it doesn't hurt anymore.

/

The worst part is, nobody will ever understand.

Always my pleasure.

It really makes me happy when I read sad stuff, like those heartfelt quotes which really makes sense because after reading them, I actually feel it. Because sometimes I realize that my feelings can't be put into words, and that there are actually people out there who are so gifted in this area, that they can.