Swear.

If you're smart enough, you'd have known that there's nothing good staying friends with me. Honestly speaking, so just fuc.. yeah you know.

Madrush.

That's how I foresee next week would be. :(

Anyways, went to see a private property today. It's seriously damn awesome, big space and all but the location's sucky. Like at upper thompson. Unless I can drive, otherwise I doubt I'll be staying anywhere near there.

Ah I want my own ice cream maker, that way I can have my ice cream 24/7. ^^ I can imagine myself making so many flavours, plus getting those mix-ins. Wah, shiok.

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I miss soccer.

But honestly, I just miss playing soccer with that bunch of people which is about 4/5 years ago.

^^

Had fish and co yesterday in celebration of him getting his license! Then bb gave me a ride home yesterday cause he got his license. Yay finally ^^

So later I'm heading out for chilli crabs at westcoast then sushi for tomorrow. :)

If I die young

I really don't mind dying young. I don't mind it at all. But they always say.. you've got a whole life ahead of you, a beautiful life, a happy one. But no one can guarantee that the rest of your life would be smooth sailing and happy and promising and all that positive words that you might want to use. Nobody. Nobody can be sure that you might develop some kind of terminal disease when you're older and be suffering and in pain 24/7.

So yes, I don't mind dying young.

Just food for thought.

Who do you think you are

We're all the same. All so fake. So let me just end everything here. No point holding on or letting go because we all know what's going to happen.

Soccer on Saturday to celebrate coach's belated birthday. I miss soccer so damn much and it's so sad to say my body's not that tough anymore. My boots was this close to falling apart and I only can rely on tape now. :(

For the first time, I finally felt that my eds is making progress but I'm so scared the lecturers won't like my stuff. So hard.

Just tonight.

I want to take a knife and stab it at your fucking face

and yours
and yours
and yours
and
yours.

Oh hi Mr Percy

Thankful.

I've just finished re-watching Time Traveler's Wife and I'm so thankful that nobody I love experience problems like that. Seriously. Like so thankful that they're all healthy and we can have small fights that doesn't really mean anything in the end and at the end of the day, they'll still be there when I need them.

So thankful that you're you and I'm me and yeah.

/ Oh, have you ever dislike anyone so much that you want them to disappear from your life? I have. Right now. Want them to just disappear. I'll be so eternally thankful for that. :')

#1

All I want to do right now, is grow old with you.

Because it really seems like I'm only happy around you.

Hypocritamus.

Well well well, I'm just glad that one of your face is happy with her face.

/ I wonder if you even knew what you did. If things are none of your business then I suggest you stay out of it. 20 years of living and you haven't learn that? I regret all that I've done for you. Planning a surprise that was so successful that you cried. I'd take that back if I knew what I had coming for mine. To be honest, it really sucks. To put in effort for someone and in return you get back shit. Fuck thought that counts. It doesn't really count as much. It just shows how much you cared. And I can't even get an apology from you? Haha, stupid fuck. Yeah you're a stupid fuck.

No, I'm not overreacting because I just feel fake friends should just be eliminated from your life because well, you know, just quoting from a famous song, "no time for losers"

For now.

I want like cuter bikinis. Or maybe like, I need a plain black swimming bottom so I can match that h&m bikini top from China. Damn it, but if I swim too much, I'll get tanner and my concealer will be useless. Hmmm

/

I just a little under appreciated.

Okay, who am I kidding?

Maybe a whole lot.

///// Maybe I'll just always be another name to your fb account.

Schedule.

Morning - Eat primrose oil pills
Night - 100 crunches + apply that oil thingy on your scars

Just in case I forget.

Sunday night.

Went to Faith's 45th Birthday dinner yesterday and our parents met for the first time. People's parents usually meet each other maybe after, erm 8-12 months? But us? Within less than 4 months, they meet. But all's good because I think they genuinely like each other. :)

Okay, fun's over. Need to chiong my eds now and vda. Super super super overdue.

Birthdays

Let's just say, a birthday can make you realize who your true friends are and yeah, don't expect me to do much anything.

I'm so sorry that I'm not the least sorry.

Right now.

“You’re a good man. You are handsome and kind and smart and good but you’re perfect, but, um, I’m, busy, holding myself together with tape and glue, and a piece of me wishes that you hadn’t played golf then you’d be all taped and glued too and maybe you’d be where I am. You’re too much for me right now because I’m busy with the tape and the glue.”

This is so, true.

/ Maybe I'm just not good enough for you, maybe I just don't deserve you.. maybe you could do so much better.

// Daddy increased our allowance to $50/week and I don't really think I'm worth that much.

/// All that self-loath and hatred. Too much for tonight.

Slacker/Me

When I say I like to stay at home, I swear I'm totally serious. I can stay home 24/7, 7 days a week and who knows, maybe forever. I just hate going out and shit, I'd rather cook for myself and stay at home.

Anyways, I pray to God that he'll bless me with speed and motivation for eds. I am changing my topic. So like.. we had 2 months? to do our eds but since I'm changing it right now, I only have 5 weeks left to complete. Champion. But Sarah haven't even approve.

/ Oh I just signed up for 10km marathon. Wth.

Shadows.

they hide the details // they leave you wondering.

Ifs.

If we didn't start/end that way 5 years ago, then maybe it wouldn't be like this right now.