Count to 10, take it in

x missing siew's visit to SG and
x sis' graduation ceremony and
x his mum's birthday
x finding out things that scared the shit outta me
x slowly running out of time to complete my EDS shit
x my vans caryn
x books at $4
x 12 more days till I'll be back
x black shatter with grey base
x gaining all this weight I'm afraid I can't lose
x having the urge to cry whenever I'm left alone
x the cute (!!!!!) thai butch in yes or no
x found the cheapest shrimp pretz

Even if you decide to give up on us, I don't mind, I don't mind. Because I don't deserve this, your love, I don't deserve it.

Favourite.

‎"I like to see people reunited, I like to see people run to each other, I like the kissing and the crying, I like the impatience, the stories that the mouth can't tell fast enough, the ears that aren't big enough, the eyes that can't take in all of the change, I like the hugging, the bringing together, the end of missing someone." - Jonathan Safran Foer (Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close)

But there's nothing I can do if you're giving up. Baby, we're just so close, 14 days, and you're just.. gonna give up?

Darkness

Damn it, the power totally tripped and now I'm typing this in total darkness.

We watched beastly just now and Alex Pettyfer is so hot but erm, the storyline totally sucked. Like seriously? It went so corny towards the end.

I guess tonight's the same. No talking to him on skype. Thanks dalian's electricity.

Good day

Ikea > Dorm > Food street > Graphic bookshop > Side gate > Dorm > Hm's room for her surprise.

Though after Ikea, everywhere we went is in school or beside school but seriously, this school is the size of jurong east to chinese garden, or maybe bigger. My legs/shoulders/back are aching like mad right now and all I want is a massage.

Dad got me my shoes and now I'm waiting for 2 pair of shorts, 1 pair of jeans together with 3 other bags to arrive then I'll stop shopping because the feeling of money gone from your wallet.. sucks.

17 more days.

/

Love/hate relationship with you. Yeah, the amount of love I have for you is equivalent to the amount of hate.

My boyfriend doesn't know

.that his words hurt me real bad sometimes
.that I don't know when he is joking
.and when he is not
.that I hate myself
.that in this foreign country, the last thing I need is his coldness (but that's the way he is, so fuck me.)

I'm in this mood where I want to cry because things are so bad but they are not really that bad because I don't exactly know what the problem is. I think I just miss him. But yeah, 20 more days. I can do this, we can do this.

Right now, I'm so inspired by models, just standing there looking pretty tall and skinny with the garments.

She said,

"if a guy texts you even in the club, then he's someone worth the keep"

and it made me realise, how much I want to keep you by my side. I don't ever want to lie to you, and I just want to be a better person for you. Believe me, I'm trying.

Meanwhile, I'm thinking of red/blue streaks in my hair?