
i am supposed to draw my body/mind maps of when i was learning something well and badly. for learning something well, my mind automatically went into when i am in soccer training. and for learning something badly, it would be the subject i dislike the most during my secondary school days, which is POA.
i've noticed that i am able to learn things better when it's taught physically rather than reading it from the book. and the differences between the both is the emotions given out. when i am learning something well, there is the 'feel good' emotion flowing all over my body and there is instant relief and happiness that i'm able to learn that particular skill well. however when i am learning something badly, the feeling of rejection will flow all over my body. like i will feel very useless as to 'why cant i even learn something so simple?' or 'why can the others catch up yet i cant?'. this results in me feeling very inferior and upset.
then i also drew out the map when i am being creative. i am supposed to compare the maps of learning well and being creative. the similarities of them is that they'll both make me feel good about myself after the experience. while the differences are that during the learning well process, i'll feel happy yet during the being creative process, i have actually 'forgotten' to feel. i know it sounds weird but it's really how i feel. like when i am being creative, i do not have the time to feel because i'm scared that if i pause to think about how i am feeling right then, i might lose my inspiration.
i actually think that if i spend more time alone, i'll be able to think and thus create more stuff. i think that nowadays, the thoughts in my mind are very tangled up and i am lazy to spend the time trying to untangle the wires in my mind. and to supercharge my learning, hmm, more hands on experience on the stuff i am supposed to learn would be better. because i think i am more of the practial kind of student, rather than the theory type.
if only there were some sort of button i could click then my creativity juices will come flowing or the power to free myself from mental blocks, it would be very useful for me as the assignments's deadline is running up and yet i am doing nothing of productivity..
fanny.

