Day 1

I fucking miss home and, seriously. I want to fucking go home and end my stay here. I miss everything so badly. Sucks sucks sucks!

Promise.

Love conquers all, including distance right? 2 months is nothing. Gotta have faith.

Alright, I guess this will be the last blog post before I fly off tomorrow. It's been such a wild March/April, filled with so much love and unexpected shits. Thank you for everything you have done for me, and sorry for giving you something that you didn't have to go through, if not because of me. I'll be seeing you soon. <3

Ps, don't watch limitless. bad ending = bad everything.

First and last.

Sleeping lesser than lesser as compared to when I'm working at Immedius Press. :/ Skin's also getting worst. But it's all worth it.

Happy 1st.

1 year ago.

Today's the first day of FOP and it was quite busy, running errands here and there and finally settling down at MLT1 for the briefing. Just 2 years, on the exact same date I stepped into SP for the very first time. Now instead of feeling nervous and all that shit, I'm quite comfortable with my surroundings. Yeah, time flies, so fast. 2 years.. so what is 2 months?

Walked home and saw the 9th storey guy but wasn't.. feeling anything at all because of you. I'm sorry for putting you through this because I know this isn't what you expected.. at all. But yeah. Sucks to be you seriously.

Today's probably the first time in so long that I've like actually fight for my love.

Don't regret it one bit. Sorry for the previous disappointment but I've lived up to your expectations right?

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Everything is so hard. I hate them for talking, for judging but I don't blame them because I'd hate myself too. I honestly don't know what to do, in hopes of not making you hate me too.

Really.

Quoted from Xinyi which she quoted from me, "Losing that job, was probably one of the luckiest thing that happened to me since the start of April."

Right now, we're interning at school, under Shirlynn because we had to clock in 6 weeks and we got fired at the beginning of the fifth week. Working under/with Shirlynn is damn fun and slack and everything our previous company is not. But I miss Bing and.. okay yeah, only Bing.

We have to attend FOP from Mon - Thurs next week as Shirlynn's right & left hand, I'm the right because I'm always right. Yeah, hopefully nothing goes wrong during the FOP and we'll get the grades we deserve? :)

Went to get my flu jab just now, and he got his chicken pox jab. :/ I hate hate hate needles because the feeling of it poking into your skin is just disgusting and the feeling of the doctor pulling it out is.. worst. So yeah. At least it's over now. Settled my windows installation into my macbook too.

Last thing to do now is the packing for China and maybe I want to buy a coat for china. (But I doubt mum allows but fingers crossed?)

Shall go and eat my bnj's now because you're outside and I'm bored and I don't want to bother you because nowadays I just feel like such a burden. So much so that I just don't feel like I'm good enough. For you.