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I can't get used to the new interface on blogger.. It's so weird.


/ Ladies and gentleman.. This is how I let myself get hurt. :)

Firsts.

While baking brownies yesterday, the baking paper was too near to the top of the oven and it caught on fire and yeah, panic 101. It was such a rookie mistake. So was mixing up table numbers and forgetting to write them down during work.

But I'm still happy. Because someone I can't have is here in my life, he gives me hours long conversations, gives me new perspectives in life, gives me feelings I've forgotten that I can feel and gives me some hope that maybe I'm not too bad. But, well there's always a but, yeah, I don't think he can stay.

Drops of Jupiter

Can you imagine no love, pride, deep-fried chicken,
your best friend always sticking up for you even when I know you're wrong?
Can you imagine no first dance, freeze dried romance five-hour phone conversation,
the best soy latte that you ever had . . . and me?

I think I finally know who I am. I am happy, mostly happy with the occasional sadness overwhelming me at weird timings. The sadness doesn't define me, it weakens me, and strengthens me when I embrace it.

It doesn't help.

x when the new facial foam mum bought is the exact one you're using .
x especially when she bought two of it.
x the smell just forces me to remember that night when I stayed over, and you just finished bathing and I was hugging you and.. that was all I could smell.

I still find myself wanting to turn to you whenever something happens or when I'm unsure of things/myself. Now I'm thinking, have I really gave so much to you that when I lost you, I'm going to take a long time to find back me?

I know, I know that I'll never get over you. And I won't even try. I'll just live with it.

Past.

This may sound silly but when I was like 9, dad used to play games on his computer and I would just sit beside him and watch. I never knew what I was doing, I wasn't even helping, I was just watching him play and how the game goes.

I miss that.

People I hate (dislike)

- those who changes their minds
- those who don't even mean it, then in the first place say okay for what?!
- THOSE WHO ARE SO TEMPERAMENTAL (the world doesn't revolve around you, okay?!)

Annoying much?

Focus, fanny. Focus.

Hey

This world works in a damn superficial way and I'm quite disgusted right now.