Waiting for the last straw.

I'm a good girl. I don't smoke, I don't gamble and my only vice would probably be biting my nails. I really deserve.. better. Not even good. Better. So yeah, guess I'm just waiting for the last straw :)

And Desaru was probably the worst holiday ever. 2 days would have been enough.. 3? Too long, too boring.

Till they fall down, down, down.

I don't know what to say, all I know is right now I don't look forward to 25 oct. Just want it to pass by like a normal day, just want to stone at home and eat all my comfort food and be fat for a day.

I know I can't expect much and I'm really not expecting anything at all. But I just want you to be nice to me for a day.. can?

Sigh, if you keep this up, well, yeah.

Okay I'm going to be 19 in a few more hours and like, if I have 19 wishes, I'd spend 18 of them on my mama's health and the last one is for you to be nice to me for just one fucking day.

xx

My goal.

19 cards.

Oh how things change. Just don't give up, not just yet.

Last year.

2010 consisted of you and taylor swift's songs.

I want you to be happy, I want you to achieve great things, I want you to do what's best for you, I want the best for you,

and I wanted to love you.

Here's to silence that cuts me to the core